Been a while since my last journal post here. Its unacceptable how bad twitter has become under musk, You cant even read or post anymore without a mountain of AI adds, cheap plastic garbage, and regressive politics in your face. I hopped on over to bluesky, But ill be pulling 2001 Livejournal numbers over there for the time being. Perhaps its here where I was always supposed to be posting. (no more 120 characters max bullshit)
I’ve been absorbed with Baldur’s gate 3 since the 3rd of this month, and The break has been really good for regenerating will to get back into art.
What kind of art? Probably the comic still. It’s the only method I have of really conveying my intent at this point. And with the exception of one artist (Nissdixon), and a tiny handful of Terrato folks I have in my chat, I never quite found the audience I was hoping to get. My Friends trawl the internet in search of like-minded folks, but then they spot someone who made a plane with eyes in the style of Dire machines, and they show it to me. What I see almost without fail, is my concepts put to the sword for someone else’s barely hidden Vore(erotic cannibalism), Whale/Dolphin Bestiality, or Obesity fetish. The most highly offensive shit.. is my legacy to others currently, And this feeling I get is called “The death of the author”. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Death_of_the_Author
I don’t see a fix for this issue other then to quit drawing porn completely as it has been monkey brain neuron activation for some of the most socially fucked up people I have ever consistently met. All I wanna do is make myself less interesting to autistic porn addicts, and AI scrappers. That Maybe if I just don’t show anyone the porn anymore, but quietly hide it here on this site, then more of the kinds of people im looking for would care about the trans humanistic stories I’m writing (wishful thinking?). Perhapse if people just don’t even see porn at all, they wont be inspired to fuck around and be gross. If they don’t see the porn, the message will finally be clear.
To my discord associates: Obese cartoon women with strange heads, and big fat titties IS NOT AIRCRAFT OR TANK. Not even close. Most of you treat “robot” as a minor texture anyway. Bitches who take a black marker, and draw seems on their knees, and elbows phoning it in -I don’t accept your premise. Go somewhere else.
9/1 we return to the Atoll lab comic post haste. I look forward to it.
Please accept my condolences from a person who has experienced something similar… I had a similar case – I published several chapters for a short novella that I was going to write with a little combat training of combat AI (which in fact were slightly modified “descendants” of the girl’s digitized mind) for a couple of days I thought out scenes, technical details for this chapter and the following ones, published and for a couple of days did not log into my account…
And when I logged in – I received feedback that I was a plagiarist. I went to see what a plagiarist I was, it turned out that two days after I published my text, a similar one appeared – the combat scenes were reprinted exactly the same, but the rest…
Sisterly-friendly relations turned into a lesbian orgy (literally) and my attempts at sci-fi turned into fantasy.
About five years have passed since then, but I still can’t force myself to turn the ideas and images stored in my head into text again. Well, I can still write down rough sketches of ideas, individual incidents, but when I try to give it a finished version in the form of a story/novella, inspiration disappears completely.
But, even though I prefer more standard anime girls, I want to say that I think your work is awesome, from the point of view of a guy who loves mechanical and biopunk things.That’s why I sincerely wish you never lose your creative spark and keep on creating.
P.S.Can I get a link to your bluesky account for subscription?
P.P.S. Just now I saw that this post is already more than a year old, but since it would be a shame to delete the comment, I apologize if I bothered you.
@... CW: Hello o/ I wanted to say, you and another person here got their fictions stolen out from under themselves? How do you even stop something like that? (Do folks just stop posting their stuff to the public eventually?) I am sorry that happened, it sucks (specially just to add in porn). I completely understand why you’ve lost the will to share to an audience who might not respect your time. I do hope that some day soon, your courage will come back to inspire you to write again. Heck, only Share it with a safe social circle you trust. MY bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/ratbat.bsky.social
You arent bothering me. o7 Also Mechanical horror/biopunk stuff IS cool to be fair. I used H.R. Giger’s work as a call back a lot. I hope I don’t lose my own spark or — get in my own way? ‘Spose you and I will do are best on our concepts right?
Also, Being into standard Anime girls is the probably the default setting. Like, You got the advantage I think. Heh
Hi, Well, IMHO the only effective way is to regularly check the Internet for plagiarists and complain to the administration about plagiarists on those resources, and hope that the administration will be adequate.
Because on one site where the road of adventure led me I complained about a guy who plagiarized (not me), wrote about bad actions with minors and monetized all this and in response to this from the site administration I received the answer “so what”, and then judging by the fact that my PM was filled with curses and death wishes, they told this author about my complaint.
Well, porn was more like a finishing blow after the spaceships rowing in a vacuum, since the lead-up to the lesbian orgy was taken from those same videos about the plumber and the housewife.
I didn’t say it exactly, or rather my preferences are characters that have at least 50% of the appearance of a regular anime girl, and the rest…
Cute tails and ears, horns, biomechanical limbs and so on are generally acceptable.
Although to be honest, my biggest fetish is gynoids or AI controlling big mechanical things that have cute anthropomorphic human-computer interface (^_~)
@cw: I immediately thought of Zenless Zone Zero when you said this: “AI controlling big mechanical things that have cute anthropomorphic human-computer interface” but if my Robo-emojis give you any feelings I hope they were good ones X)
As Duki said, I’m here for the relationships and interactions, the porn is just a lovely cherry on top.
I’ve even been mulling over a story featuring my own spin on living machines, but I’ve been hesitant to post anything about it because the jet swallows a mechanic who’s trying to figure out how she works (he gets out), and I am worried I’ll be shunted off to the “fetish” category before I can get to the real meat of things. Seeing how pointed the opinions are, I’ve actually considered rewriting a lot of it.
Btw, it’s not your fault. The reason “living machine” and “heavily anthropomorphized machine” are so often lumped together is because they are similar premise, and obscure enough to not have a lot of content yet. They are not the same, but each has their place. We just need to educate people on what the differences are.
There’s still some argument over whether anime cat girls count as furry or not after all. This feels like a similar argument.
Exactly. My way to tackle the porn is to treat it as a side, as flavour. And yes, everyone has their own liking and so do I, I too have my own made up “lore” with its own weirdness.
Pd: I am an aircraft mechanic, so the figuring out how an aircraft works hits!
Whoa Duki, cool! and also as someone who has spoken to a multitude of mechanics now (I hope your employer treats you right) It its interesting how it is always the avmechanics I meet and Never actual pilots (you are soo close to the nuts and bolts of the thing. ) . But yeah this is a side flavor. “Innsmouth monster stuff”.I love it.. I just dont want it to over power as much as it might have. 6.6 btw prepare for lots of this to be “magic” some physics is wonkey.
My take is that pilots get all the chicks so they dont get interested in the plane XD! But on a serious note I feel that us mechanics are more connected to the vehicles we fix because we know all their needs, we work hard on them while pilots just fly the thing, so there is no bond. And well the employer is fine, Ryanair is what it is, but it is such a good company for starting and getting experience to jump to another airline.
Im kinda late to party, but anyways, I’ll leave my thoughts. For me, I always found very interesting the relationship between humans and dire machines. It is such an intruguing concept to think about co-living with dire machines and how that life could be, and the reason as to why I like your work is not the porn, but the thought behind it.
Hi duki (thanks for saying hi o7) I don’t have nearly enough of the world fleshed out, But I’ll keep trying. I think living with a big computer robot person would probably be real cool. Different insights
Hi Ratbat (it was my first message and i didnt even say hello, so nice to meet you o7)
Yeah, living with a big computer robot person would be very cool to say the least. Its such a “what if” that just keeps me wondering
I love your art I’m not here for the porn, I think the dire machines are so cute and your art warms my heart. I prefer cars my self but I hate the vore and degradation of such beautiful machines. I want you to know that you have my support. Though it may not mean much, I enjoy your art and hope you keep posting.
I get the point you are going for with protecting your creations, but don’t understand why you’re getting upset with the anthro side of things. Aero- and other morphs were not your creation, they were not popularized by you, nor do you seem to draw them as much anyways compared to the dire and other stuff. What are you upset about?
I love your work, though I am more interested in female Dire machine then male, all of your work is truely unique. I can’t hope to know what you are going through, but I do hope you continue to share your art of human and Dire machine intimacy and affection.
But, if you decide to step away from doing erotic art, I would understand. What is most important in life is making sure you are happy. And regardless of how you choose to go forward, I will always look forward to seeing more of this beautiful world you have created.
P.S. I agree, what musk is doing to Twitter is incredibly saddening to watch.. Like seeing a spoiled child destroy something nice in a tantrum..
tbh, im to horny a person to quit porn completely. Im just going to keep it here. Thank you for enjoying what i have btw. ;;salute;; -cc
I am glad for this to read this, for I am to horny a person to miss your totally hot art ever since I came here.
oh how so? what do your machines do in these fantasies?
The machine impresses me with strength/speed/design, so I get turned on. Then it usually starts with me caressing him all over his hull, finding his sensitive spots. I hear by the sound of his engine that he enjoy pleasure, a bit like heavy breathing. Than the machine licks me all over and holds me crushed against him. When we both are that steamed up, we either do oral, or he fucks me for hours, or both of that. And when we finally stop, we relax close together to share orgasmic afterglow. Another frequent fantasy is about me washing the machine. Nice warm water and a soft cloth over his sensitive hull, and I don’t skip ANY part of him. Then his engines sound like moaning with intense pleasure. So he can’t hold back anymore and fucks me for hours. And then we enjoy the afterglow, me close against his still warmed up hull.
I agree I’ve spent many of the nights up thinking about various scenarios in which AI has awakened what will happen when it becomes indistinguishable from human. the work you put out has quite literally provided an insight into how will we treat AI when we can’t even treat ourselves right. Your work quite literally has answered or attempted to very well answer the question of can it be human if it isn’t biologically human.
I’m also a major lore nerd attracted to just about anything that’s got massive amounts of lore
I just found your site in the search for some sexy mecha art. You too seem to know this is not easy, since what many people refer to as ‘living machines’, resemble rather large human woman. Your art is, pardon the expression, my ultimate wet dream! Finally, some hot, sexy, male living machines to be ‘hungry’ for. Thank you, for sharing your art with us!
It’s not at all easy. When I did this with mechs back in the 90’s-00’s people didn’t really pay attention. I had to grind comics for a while. anyway welcome.!
I can imagine this not being easy. For some people, great talent will always be wasted, and that must be frustrating. I read Prince Tomcat comic. Been dreaming about the 2 blackbirds Older and Younger now for 3 days in a row. It’s… GREAT! Thanks.
you mentioned liking the sr-71’s are you yourself an artist? how long have you been into machines?
The SR-71 is indeed a big crush of mine. But my nickname is the name of my ultimate mecha love: Star Treks Galileo 7 shuttlecraft. That’s how I discovered my type: extremely fast and preferably with big engine nacelles. And some elegance too. It sets me on fire. I was 11 and in early puberty when I watched a docu about fighter jets. I felt pure excitement and a desire to touch them. I fantasised about caressing their wings, their controls, everything, and I orgasmd on the thought. Since then I knew I was a mecha. I recently made some drawings of my shuttlecraft lover, in my free time, but I would not call them art yet, it’s amator amusement. But by each drawing, I learn to do it better.